Hi all - just wanted to share with a community who I think will understand. Today, I had to have my coastal female, Phoebe, euthanased. At just under 8 foot, she was an amazing animal with a remarkably calm, unfussed temperament that made her a joy to have in my collection. She wasn't the most valuable animal we have by far, but to me, she was priceless. She succumbed to a nasty infection that unfortunately 'came with her' when I acquired her just before Christmas. The winter cooling turned off her immune system, as happens during brumation, and the bacteria in her system prevailed. She had widespread pettichiae (micro-haemorrhages) on her body, and in her mouth, and the kindest thing to do was to end it for her today. I am devastated. Empty. Thanks to the team at BBEVS, MacGregor for their genuine sympathy and compassion.