Rainbow-Serpent,
You have chosen your name well... the progenitor of new life in Aboriginal spiritual beliefs. The transition from a gawky, at times awkward and often not really sure of yourself emerging teenager, with the attitude that 'you sure as hell are not prepared to let anyone else know about your uncertainties or insecurities', into a young adult. This is truly one of life's magic transitions. Like the weird little hairy caterpillar that emerges as an exquisite butterfly. Given your open and honest acknowledgement of what you used to be, I'm backing a beautiful butterfly rather than a subdued non-event moth.
Spread your wings and enjoy the result!
Blue